Thursday, October 29, 2009


I’m shrinking and shrinking and shrinking…

for the emo that never...

I’m sorry…

I’m so sorry… it was my mistakes.

Why it was so hard to just say it? I did tell him I’m sorry but…

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Beautiful Nightmare…

Quite hard to find decent photo of her... LOL!

‘Granted, when this concert was first announced, PAS youth wing did what the do best to “protect the morals of Malaysians” by calling for a protest.’

I’m so not get it when there are peoples who can’t accept that there are others who care. That can’t see if there are others who trying doing a good deeds. If you did not want to stand for what is right, let others do it. You may just shut up.

Which only questions, the kind of image and misconceptions that other people have about Malaysia and its peace-loving people to prompt such drastic action

So really, you are looking for someone to blame?

- This is taken from The Star’s today.

Generally, is there is any good things come from the whole concerts or gigs thing?

The whole saga of our entertainment industry is nonsense. The they who can’t be mention should open the books again. Study whatever related and made adjustment to their manual wherever necessary. They should go back to the basic and learn. Their ‘I couldn’t care less’ attitude would continue damaging our youth. If they can’t do what needed to be done let others who can. I admit that it’s a lot EASIER said than DONE but WHEN THERE’S A WILL, THERE’S A WAY.

In this case, it’s unfair to teach the IF I Was A Boy’s girl how she should dress herself. Why don’t the who can make decision just declare that such event is inappropriate for Muslim’s youth. So, it’s strongly advisable to not to join such events. Thus, any promotion related to it must include the advice circulated. Etc.. etc... etc... Not that I have no other suggestion but I should stop here before other get annoy of me... LOL!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Me and my heart... We’ve got issue.

I’m so pissed off… I’m mad. I hate her so much that I thought I should just leave. So I won’t have to see her again. So I wouldn’t feel these feeling anymore. All this thing make me feel insecure, useless, not comfortable with my own self and most of all I’m sad. I think that my life would be much better if she is not so whatever…

She is the dark cloud of my life. She would only see my weaknesses and seldom to notice my good deeds. It’s not that I want her to but nobody’s perfect. Why can’t you just leave me alone? I hope I have the courage to tell her that she and her comments are not allowed. Never. End of story.

I can still smile if you accidentally stepped on my foot. I’m cool if you did not say thanks when you should. I’m fine if you told me that I should not do what I’ve did or if you are mad at me over something. It’s not that matter if you told me I’m not material to you. But, for over and over and over, you make such comments that I can’t possibly accept? It’s really nerve wrecking.

Was I being emotional? My reflection says so. I was drawn with feeling. All mixed up that I become someone that I don’t want to be. The whole situations bring out the beast in me. This is me that I hate. Should I just ignore this heart wrenching situation?

At the end of the day, my heart is mine. Happiness is my said. My life definitely is my call. My heart might be broken but there’s someone out there who might don’t have it at all.

It just another bad day…

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

double chin

If you are suffering a double chin problem, these might help. LOL!

Here are some more double chin exercise that you can do every day. These you can do at any time, but as with any exercise, a routine is preferable since you are less likely to forget, and you will make time for something you do every day.

1.Stand comfortably. Slowly raise your head from your chest and tilt it back as far as possible. Do not strain. Close your mouth tightly so that your feel the neck muscles stretch. Count to ten and relax, bring your head back to normal. Start by doing this exercise once or twice a day than gradually increase until you are doing ten a day.

2.Stand comfortable with your head at a natural angle. Open your mouth wide and put your tongue out as far as possible. Count to ten and then relax. Does this as many times as you comfortable can, again building to ten.

3. Stand comfortable with your head at a natural angle. Bring your lower lip- up as far as possible, count to ten and relax. Repeat ten times.

4.Stand comfortable with your head at a natural angle. Pull your chin upwards so you feel your muscles stretch. Count to ten and relax. Build to ten.

5.Sit upright, then tilt your head back as far as you can manage, now open and close your mouth several times feeling the muscle stretch each time.


Sunday, October 11, 2009


at some point of your life, have u ever stop






…. what would u do then??

Friday, October 09, 2009

Senyum seindah suria

Senyum seindah suria
Yang membawa cahya
Senyumlah dari hati
Duniamu berseri

Senyum umpama titian
Dalam kehidupan
Kau tersenyum ku tersenyum
Kemesraan menguntum

Senyum... kepada semua
Senyumanmu amatlah berharga
Senyum... membahagiakan
Dengan senyuman terjalinlah

Thursday, October 08, 2009

7. Google – DPM

I have a written note of what to do… quite a list then. Number 7 is Google – DPM. I was like, what on earth is DPM. Deputy Prime Minister? Big NO! DPM does not ring any bell. I’ve tried to retrieve from my hard disk. No answer. No clue at all. Was it associate to someone? A potential hunting candidate maybe or someone I don’t really like. LOL!!

What, who, when or which DPM I’ve written about? Damn! The only thing I remembered is I did not want others to know what I’m google-ing. So DPM is it. Duh!

At this juncture, cracking my brain won’t do any good. The possibility to crack it is impossible. 0.001% I might say.


Nothing much…

Nothing much… still working with the same Company, rent the same apartment, still the same weekends, still me and myself alone, still looking for Dupree… Lol! Still the same person but ageing in term of number. LOL! Basically ‘nothing much…’

That was a simple answer yet hard for others to correctly process. I like when friends calling or sms-ing to updates what’s new with each others life. That’s what friends do then, checking each others. There might be expectations sometimes. When we have goods stories to share, we hope the other person also has one to share. So, it wouldn’t bring the guilty feeling if the other person don’t. You would be please to share all the highlight with your best friends but it is a bit dim if you don’t have any.

So the next time the phone ringing I should have better than nothing much answer. It’s jaded, mystical at some points, raises so many others why and doom. I could say that I’m now collecting sky high heels… juicier!!!

Monday, October 05, 2009

Be thankful…

Have you ever envy Angelina Jolie for dating Brad Pitt? Or have you ever wish you are Paris Hilton? I have. But I was thankful I’m not. I did not want to be Paris Hilton because I know what she will turn into in the Hereafter. That is if she died as Paris Hilton.

Be thankful for what you have and be thankful for what you don’t have.

We will not be given things that we can’t handle. We are not less fortunate for not having what others have. We are not less worthy from what we think we are. I may not have a pretty face but I’m thankful for what I have. I may not be born as heiress but I’m thankful for the family that I have.

It’s not wrong being thankful for the wealth that you don’t have, for the great things that you haven’t achieve, for the dreams that still a dreams.

It’s not easy to actually doing it but you definitely a better person if you did. It’s not something that every man can do.

Joe Flizzow…

Dear Joe,

You might think that nobody would notice what you did. That nobody would question your whatever. You might think that what you did is immaterial to others. That what you do to yourself is definitely your own business.

He might run out of show lately that he will grab whatever offered. Or he did not know for whom he have to perform until he get on the stage. Or is he a fan of Arthur Guinness and his Guinness? Or he is not. I wonder what song that he sang that night… hopefully not the song that he collaborates with Yassin.

Dear Joe,

I’m sorry that you did what you did. I’m sorry for taking it as my business. Hopefully you are sorry for yourself.

I felt so mad when I read it on newspaper that Joe Flizzow performed alongside others artists in the Arthur’s Day concert. It really got on my nerves. I don’t care what you do with your private life but it was on the papers.

I’m truly sorry.

Villages wiped out...

I read on the newspaper… villages wiped out. Déjà vu. I heard it somewhere. Not just once, few times. I heard it during classes back in school, I heard it on TV and now I heard it again.

Seriously, I want to know the ‘behind the story’ of everything that happens in the disaster area. I’m not saying that there must be but there might be a story behind the story. So, we could learn from it if there are any.

Have you heard such stories before? Stories from yesteryears. Stories told by the Almighty in His kalam, our Al-Quran. Stories of people before our dearest Prophet, Muhammad SAW. Stories of how He vanished peoples who ignored His Messenger’s words. How He destroyed peoples who being cruel to themselves.

I’m sure that things happen for a reason. It might be a disaster caused by natural factors. But, it might also a message from Him. An angry message I guest. There are so many cruelties done by us to ourselves, to others and to the world. We knew it but we did nothing. We did it again and again. We are far from the saying that said learnt from our mistakes. I guest; it would be far too late when we finally woke up.