it's French for 'wonder'.
I wonder… what will happen if I refuse to grow up? All I want to be is a girl… sweet or not, just a girl without responsibilities, without those hard feeling or without needing of so many things… just heels or chocolate, or both.
I don’t want to want to be a mother. I don’t want to ‘can’t wait to be a great wife…’ and I don’t want to be needed to be anything other than a girl.
He said I can’t be little girl forever… I have to grow up. How I wish I can say ‘NOOOOOOOOO, I don’t want to…’ Then I’ll prove he is right.