Monday, August 27, 2012

Tiffany & him...

He said he want it blue, for the wedding... So I told him can it be something like Tiffany... just to let him know about Tiffany... LOL! Then he asked, how? So I made him Google Tiffany.

Then;

Do you want Tiffany’s ring? Wow, I really love this guy. But of course I said ‘no, I don’t want a Tiffany’s ring...’ Should tell him ‘I don’t want a Tiffany’s ring now but maybe later...’ LOL! 

but he knew about Tiffany.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

untitled...

I made a request from Mr.Darcy on one particular thing. I’ve asked him if ever I made a mistake or I messed up, please don’t ever raise his voice or yell or be really mad at me. No matter how messed up or how big and silly the mistake will be.  

Just now, someone raised his voices to someone in front of me. I felt like going home right away. 

I’m scared and terrified if someone yelling or getting so angry over something or someone.
I told him I don’t want to be afraid of him because it will take all the love away... I hope he won’t be someone I love but terrified to. I pray that I won’t do anything that will turn him into someone I don’t want to.  

I just can’t take it any more... to be constantly guessing will the day passed without me being scared and terrified and everything. 

Monday, August 06, 2012

black curtain…

He said he want a black curtain for the house…

Black curtain? Could be alright I guess. Maybe black with some splash of gold or some color with a splash of black… 

Come to think of it again this morning, black curtain? Am I serious?  

I want to come home to a warm house… with a nice curtain but black is too mysterious for me. Looks like someone got to have a plan…  

Thursday, August 02, 2012

things I knew...

There are so many things on the plate right now... just going to ignore those while I can...  
I grew up having this 5 years plan, 10 years plan and so on up until I reach forty. I have it since donkey years because I like to have a pre plan life. It was just a plan but there are some thing which I’m very certain would and could happen. 

Such as; I knew I won’t be married until I’m at least 29 years old. That I’ll meet this someone not until I’m at least 29 years old. That I won’t have a long love relationship and such because I’m suck at relationship, with the other gender. Then, I met this stranger and the next thing I knew is marriage.  

Few of my friends ask me what happened and how it happened. Maybe because I’m me; a girl who is afraid of growing up and marriage... amongst other things.  

What happened was I always knew that my place is not here, or Houston or Tiffany... I always belong to some kitchen, table top or not making some dinner for the husband and maybe some kids. It something I knew or maybe because I want it so badly...  

InsyaAllah...