'mimpi yang sempurna'

is that u?

2012-02-05T08:53:00.002+08:00

semi colon-hyphen-parentheses

the family

2012-01-30T12:09:00.001+08:00

Met few of my relatives during last CNY holidays. As always, the same question pops up. Nur said Kak Linda have one very nice candidate for me. Ask for my number and so on. My ‘bakal bapak mentua tak jadi’ just smile when he saw me. I love him as much as I love my dad. His wife which is our dearest Mak Long said ‘betul ke nak nie? Kalau betul, kite orang bole lobi betul-betul..’. Abang Sham said ‘cari sendiri lagi baik…’.

And he said ‘cakap je dah ade..’.

Oca on the other hand said ‘Jom la pergi Segamat Mak Ngah..’ Yes my dear, I miss you so damn much too.

And me, I ate 2 plate of white rice with our Ayah Teh asam pedas… it was so delicious, just like my mum asam pedas.

Those people I dearly love and those good foods really makes my day…

the proposal

2012-01-29T07:31:00.002+08:00

have you ever wonder the mysterious of life? I've always.

two packs of chocolate, and my life are written

it's written to be wonderful... InsyaAllah!

It’s here…

2012-01-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

This is the time where I’m suppose to pack my things and run… look back and run faster. And give myself those usual peep talks. And wishing I was someplace else and for the time to pass.

And I’m here… with my luggage, standing still, because I’m wearing my favourite heels… won't ever run in it… LOL! thinking should I run to Houston? Or shouldn’t I run at all, for whatever future will bring.

… because this could be my midnight train. For whatever sake it is!

and he said.....

2012-01-27T08:15:00.000+08:00

"what happened to happily ever after?"

today is Friday, tomorrow is 28th Jan and the day after tomorrow is future.

the weather is nice and I like this feeling, something she described as "flying high and higher...." and no little chicken!!! the skies aren't falling down yet...

and I said "it's Friday..."

my so called pre-engagement party…

2012-01-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

Suddenly the title makes me felt daja vu… LOL! Browsing my email for something and found this. So LMAFO!

Nancy is our ex manager… but we do keep in touch. Once in a while she would call the office for new update/gossip. And she would be so disappointed if we said ‘No good news to share la Nancy…’

Last Ramadhan, the office plan to hold a buka puasa. Then, I came with a kind of brilliant idea. Instead of inviting her for the buka puasa, I asked our Kak Rokiah to tell her it was my engagement party. She did not believe me unless I send her a picture of my soon to be fiancé. Shoot her the above email with a picture of me with my classmate. Then, she agreed to join us. We just laughed at it and I doubt she believe me. Until she called one of my colleagues and asked her what should she buy for my engagement or should she just give me angpow. And the rest is history.

‘cause sometimes I'm just crazy…

Orang cakap, berangan tu tak payah bayar…

2012-01-17T08:15:00.003+08:00

Back then, I was so called worked for Barney’s New York. Then, a friend PM me “eh, masih di New York ke?” and I was like “what did I do?” thus, I had to explain to her the why and apologized.

Now, I was so called working for Tiffany & Co. And last afternoon, I was so called feeding the duck at Central Park… and it happened again. A friend comment “NY?” and PM me “kerja kt Tiffany & Co ke”. And a was like “did I did it again?” I could ignore the comment but the message?

The thing is I have no reason to deceive my friends. It was something I hope people read and said “koya sungguh budak nie” or “berangan tak ingat”. And I don’t wish for them to believe everything they read there. The last thing I want to be is a liar because I’m not.

And again, I’ve learnt about assuming few days earlier the hard way.

My profile on FB wasn’t meant to hurt anybody, especially me. I’m not trying to impress anyone or trying to live a fake like. I’m just a girl who wants to have a little extra fun by upgrading my virtual ME to a level where I could not possibly be in real life.

And to those who felt I lied or deceiving them in any way, I’m so sorry. Like people said “berangan tu tak payah bayar…” and I'm suck at free thing. Don’t we? LOL! And haven’t you heard this “don’t believe everything you read on the internet’?

the duchess turns 30…

2012-01-13T12:28:00.000+08:00

In style… married a prince, travel the world, become a fashion icon, do more charity work. All checked!

Here is my little secret; I had a plan… just in case if ever I’ve bumped into that William and he ask me out. LOL!!!!!!

When I was in high school, I kind of think that I won’t like be in the late 20s and I’ll be thrilled to enter what they called 3series world. Little me is damn right. I just can’t wait to be 15 again. It’s like I was on the ‘on your mark, get set & GO!!!’ again!

And this not so duchess, will probably meet a duke… LOL!

picture from; google.com

She is gorgeous!!

let’s play Cupid

2012-01-10T10:59:00.001+08:00

Erm, I have few friends from my high school who is single. Also, few girlfriends I’ve met along the way whose is single. And they are in the looking for you know who.

Me, being myself felt like something should be done. LOL! Now, I’m unlicensed and inexperienced Cupid. Ha-ha!

Will it works? It’s not my job. If it’s written up there, InsyaAllah.

between Tiffany and Me, there is a never end road…

2012-01-06T10:31:00.000+08:00

I’ve received the tentative timetable for my June exam yesterday. Felt like calling my mum and cried. The timetable was so mean because I don’t even have a single week (other than public holiday which falls on weekend) from now until June where I can balik kampung without missing any classes.

I can kiss goodbye to lazy Sundays, free and easy ride to the place where I call home and happy hour all day long with my girls.

Guess my boss was right. I need a GGMUSS. Someone if not two… LOL! But, doubt one could last with the crazy-mess!

05 jan 2011, thursday

2012-01-05T19:42:00.001+08:00

Today, this very today will be going to be a history for me. Due to something which happened early in the morning. It’s something like when Victoria Beckham smiling to the paparazzi. Or when George Clooney announces he is going to marry his whoever girlfriend.

I forgot something which shouldn’t be forgotten. Soon realizing it, I felt like starting the day over again... how I wish I could. It was something bizarre and I couldn’t believe I’ve missed it.

LOL!Note to myself; it’s something to do with the 9k budget…

a promise

2012-01-05T06:15:00.000+08:00

Back then, I’ve made a promise… there is someone who asked me to remind him… if ever he forgets, or if he messed up or if he crossed the line… and I’ve promised him I will…

He did…

And I did not.

Part of me knows he needs me… to tell him the promised he made that I’ve promised to remind him about… part of me know I was the reason he forget… I’ve messed up but he messed up so badly... part of me glad that he did what he did…

why I 'less-than-sign 3' blogging

2012-01-04T18:14:00.001+08:00

…because I can write something like this;Someone in Western Ghats knows me… LOL!!!

Another story; I was admired by a boy over my hand technique… it made my day!

They said, smallest gesture can bring smile to one face. Indeed!

it’s fall…

2012-01-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

There’s no mulberry leaves, only that yellow little flower scattered around the walkway… it made me felt like falling with it….

I kind of know a guy recently. Nothing happen yet… it may and it may not. The problem is he fits the bill. LOL! Basically, I fall for the idea that he may be the one… as always! Right now, I realize why my previous I-think-he-is-the-one relationship didn’t last long. With that idea, thought and feeling; my heart become restless, it beat faster. My mind constantly thinking about the possibilities; ‘what if’. And I can’t stop smiling or grinning… macam kerang busuk… ouch!! And the worst is I had chest pain, I don’t know where it comes. And I felt like telling the whole about my new found treasure. The easiest way was always to put an end to it. Game over!

This time? I’ll see how frequent I’ve turned into kerang busuk… LOL!

this is my 400th...

2011-12-31T18:28:00.000+08:00

She’s no longer 20 something girl, she spend more time at works than anything else, still struggling to commit with her weekend study which mean no holidays, no balik kg on every other weekend like always and no lazy Sunday morning, she won’t have to visit the Tiffany anytime soon and her biggest problem is her constant need to worries and thinking about everything under the sun, like why that man walking in the rain alone in the middle of the night? Did he have a place to go? etc...

p/s; apart from that big kitchen, I also want our house to be without any tv. Why? I’m a tv junkie…

awkward moments

2011-12-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

I’m a bit clumsy at times especially in front of a cute guy… LOL! I also love talking to myself or often I found myself rhyming a song a bit louder than I’ve supposed.

I was walking the other day, noticed ‘D’ car and sort of hye-ing it complete with my chirpy face expression. Little did I know that there was a guy walking towards me and an uncle standing not so far from me, facing my direction.

I was walking towards my apartment, rhyming some malay-old rock song… it a bit too loud but it was too late because there was a guy walking behind me and passed by me while I was slowing down my volume… luckily we did not share the lift.

Passed by a stall selling fruits once I paid for my roti canai the other morning. Few second later, the container full with fruits dropped with a big bang. I looked back and so few people inside the HCC. Also, a guy ahead of me… shocked as I am. Felt they were staring at me rather that the container... LOL! I was asking myself ‘did I do that?’ “I guess it was because of the wind...” I’ve said to the guy… luckily he agreed with me. And luckily it was quite windy at that time…

While having a catch up session with someone, he paused for my response or comments or anything. But, I couldn’t find any words to response. So, I just smiled.

Felt like a guy was staring at me when I was walking by myself. Then, he accidently dropped his keys when I caught his eyes. Damn!

i did it son!

2011-12-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

Did something which if it works, I could tell my children about. InsyaAllah.

What was it about? About a girl, a deli and a cup of coffee.

dec 30th, 2011

2011-12-30T16:38:00.001+08:00

Someone made me cry when he recalled back one accident where I cried in front of a stranger because of some mistake done by someone else.

I’ve listen to Avril’s new single over and over again because I could relate to it so damn much… damn, damn, damn…

I hate when I have to deal with unmarried man.

Met someone… made me thinking is it me or is it not me? Am I suck or it’s suck that I’m in. maybe, one fine day… right now, the truth maybe too much for my shoulder…

There are others who have a tougher life than I am… indeed!

I hate capitalist!

This spot I’m in now, won’t leave me. I have to pick up whatever I have left behind; get up because Houston won’t come to me either.

and waiting for SMS which not even written… yet!

hurt

2011-12-29T19:44:00.002+08:00

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that
I've missed you
Since you've been away...

it’s not about chocolate…

2011-12-28T17:03:00.002+08:00

...or heels or foods. It about something I heart as much as I hearts chocolate and heels.

Never I say no or decline ‘it’. ‘It’ melts my heart every time someone makes me such offer. Just the other day, a friend text me. And asked me, weather I’m interested to or not to. To my surprise, I said no. I guess my heart bypass my mind and make the decision itself. It was NO and that was it.

It occurred to me whether I’m now at a stage where it doesn’t matter anymore… I hope not!

Literally I realize that he must be some man… or else my yours truly won’t make such decision.

hikayat yusuf izuddin

2011-12-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

Thanks for waking me up on every morning when I felt college is suck
Thanks for checking me up when I was not there… my friends told me, LOL!
Thanks to the white little thing you drove around, it told me that you were around.
I was so closed to tell you that it was me…
I was so damn closed to connect all the dot when she comes…
It funny, how you always with someone… always!
With you, I do believe when they said that life is so long that we will meet again… don’t worry, I’ll found you just like the other day.
Or could this be the closure I’ve delayed many times ago… I hope.
For those fond memories and unspoken words, merci!
-Fin-

again… about my wedding

2011-12-28T11:13:00.000+08:00

LOL!

For whatever it’s, there is a chance of it to happen.

If I ever going to, I dream for a very simple reception. Skip the dais, the hantaran, bersanding, and everything which is over-rated. But, if ever the family still wants a customary reception, I want to choose what I’ll be getting for the hantaran. Be it 5 or 7 or 9, I want Louboutin, Yves Saint Laurent, Jessicca Simpson, Aldo, Marc Jacob and maybe something from that turquoise house.

Then, I’ll be the happiest shoes collector… opssss!!!

di antara Awie dan Bob Lokman…

2011-12-23T16:50:00.002+08:00

For thosewho do not know who is Awie or Bob Lokman, please ask my prince charming. Andplease ask him what happened between the two as well.

We are busydigging and beautifying our own grave we didn’t realize we took others’shit as well with us. But not to Bob Lokman.

The two ofthem used to sail in the same boat. Until Bob decide to sail a in much betterboat. And being a ‘ur s*** is my s***’person, he told Awie that his boat is definitely better. Being ‘my s*** is mydamn fishing s***’ person, Awie got so pissed off. And the rest is history.

Awie is agreat example how we were raised. Advices often misinterpret as busy body. We weretold not to meddle in others business especially when religious is concern. Why?Because the matter of concern is so damn sensitive. I personally think we needa lot more people like Bob, who not afraid of expressing his mind, withwhatever history he has.

2011-12-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

Hey,

There, I was…blue and black

Damn,

How I wishyou were there.

Left…

Couldn’t bethere when there’s no sight of you

I’m here…

Standing onmy two feet and

Damn!

I wish youwere right.

quotes

2011-12-08T17:16:00.000+08:00

They said lightning won’t strike a place twice… they might be wrong.

They said money won’t make you happy… it surely does!

If you let iPhone define where you stand in the crowd, you definitely need to open your eyes a little bit more.

Thanks to capitalism, rain is not as fun as yesteryear's.

The richer are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer are not just a saying.

Worry won’t take you anywhere but it does left some line on your face.

The best things ever happen in my life are when He answered when I called and He gave when I asked.

Men who need more than enough sign are literally not worth a headache.

I believe that life is long and I’ll see you again when I’ll see you again.

I believe it’s impossible to keep your feet on the ground when you reach for the skies…

I have less than 100 hours to satisfy few hungry hearts, to hold whatever balance of esteem I still have and to actually make wise the weekends I’ve spend at school.

-colon-apostrophe-open bracket-

2011-12-05T17:38:00.001+08:00

Life is like a wheel… no matter who you are. Sometimes you are up, and sometimes you are down. Sometimes you’ll be doing great and sometimes you’ll mess up. But remember, you are always beautiful. All the great people do have their downward moments too.

I’ve never been so messed up. I’ve never been liabilities to anybody. So far, I could proudly say that I’ve been a good daughter and kind of nice sister to have. I give my sit to the needy. I never had relationship turn enemy with any of my friends. Guest enough with bragging about how sweet I am.LOL!! I’m just justifying that I’m kind of an average living soul.

Now, I’m a liability to myself. My sub-conscious can’t feel and my conscious can’t think. That was the worst one could ever be, I’ve supposed. I kind of lost with all the madness evolved around me. Some was purposely and some was beyond me.

I couldn’t even talk to Him. :’(

I guess this is where the light goes dim and I’m sliding from whatever I’ve hold on for. If sinking was all I needed to rise, and then sink I shall.

All the nice girl things above have one exception. There is someone who had years, tolerantly copes with my not so proud attitude… and still coping, he is.

reminder, a rather...

2011-12-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

I’m in a deep shipt… it’s a mess or I’m a mess. It was long due I’ve supposed.

Too many bad consequences, could it be because I’m here when I’m supposed not to be here. Could it be different if I’ve made changes I’m suppose to make but could it led me to this mess anyway?

I’ve never question… now I didn’t know what to ask because nothing seems alright.

Houston is just a dream… this mess, like it or not need to be un-messed!

.personal coaching.

2011-11-29T18:39:00.002+08:00

Had a personal coaching session at starbucks earlier today….

Bla…bla…bla…bla… BURNING DESIRE!!!!!!!! Bla…bla…bla…

“You know, like those football players, they need those supporters to motivate them while they are on the field for those 90 minutes… you may need someone too!” Then I felt like being hit by a train, or worst!

I wish I could just run and run and never look back!

Ignorance is bliss...

2011-11-18T18:08:00.000+08:00

until you being ignored.

There is a fine line between stupidity and ‘seriously?’

I don’t understand how people can be such ignorant and still manage to pull an innocence face. Or could we? Comes from someone who cares almost about everything... but again, can we, human who own a heart be such ignorant? Women especially! It doesn’t come out right for me.

In a rare occasion, it could be unintentionally... apology accepted! What about when it was over and over again? Either you are plain stupid; which is nothing I could do about it or you are totally not worth the headache! End of story.

Heart, it is unseen but people might see it through you...

teenagers

2011-11-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

Going back to the time when II was 15... It was 14 years ago... Wow, I’m 29! *scary*

Back then, life for teenagers would be more or less the same. We seldom asked money from our parents. What they gave was what we got and we spent it accordingly. Sometimes, we will ask for some money... some! to buy twisties, or the stupid water gun and such. Then, when our parents said something like NO or TAK BOLEH it mean NO. We don’t really argue with that. Life moves on! And when we sulking or got scolded, we gave them the silent treatment or went out and play with our mates. Then, came home before the sun down and we don’t even remembered that we were sulking before. Love; yeah... for unlucky some, they fall for that puppy love. Maybe a date at McD, make a round or two inside the shopping complex or exchanged of love letters. That was pretty much of it, nothing really complicated. And we grew up just fine... most of us.

Then, the now teenager. They thought their parents have all the monies in the world. They don’t ask, but demand and expect their parents to be able to provide such money they asked. Their toys cost hundreds at least. And when their parents said something like NO, they said never mind!!!! If ever the parents raise their voices, they run and didn’t come home and for some, it’s for forever. There are no perfect words to their ears. The worst is they want to know everything right away. There’s no such thing as puppy love because they went straight to you-know-what. How scary is that?

And one more things, they don’t know how to take thing easy... life seems so complicated to them. They need to learn to slow down a lot, to act their age and to girl, stop shaving your eyebrow.

10-1 = 9+1

2011-11-17T09:14:00.000+08:00

If you have ten finger attached to your palm, be thankful. For, there are others who have less ten fingers but still be thankful for not having it.

Recently, I’ve accidently cut my little finger and only realized it when I saw the cut. Just a minor cut and it did not bleed at all. I was actually doing some cleaning at the time. Once I know about the cut, I’ve started isolated that very finger. And the works which was quite handy become a bit hard. Just because I’m working with nine finger.

How do you take care of yourself? And do you?

Use umbrella even when it just a drizzle, get enough calcium for your bones, eat healthily and don’t be reckless with your body... you may need it longer than you expected.

And appreciates what you have before it gone. You never know what you’ll miss until it’s gone. Appreciate your parents while they were still around.

another day in paradise

2011-11-16T11:35:00.000+08:00

Saw a man...
Elderly man carrying a cup of warm water...
Open his worn-out bag and took out some medicine...
Took few pills and continue his journey with a limp leg.

How I wish...
I keep wondering... does he have someone he can go to?
I feel bad every time... especially for men and children.

Life is His secret. Everyone is tested in a different ways. But my heart felt so fragile every time.

I wish I could do more than just wishing...

He disappeared in the crowd... trying to look for him but he was nowhere...

"kan best kalau jadi Garfield.."

2011-11-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

“kan best kalau jadi kucing... tak payah pergi kerja...”

Tahukah anda bahawa kucing hanya boleh makan sisa-sisa KFC seperti tulang ataupun kulit yang dah tak rangup tu... kecuali lah Garfield kerana boleh la makan lasagna hari-hari.

Dan sedar tak bahawa kucing tak boleh berangan nak pakai Louboutin...

Kucing pun tak dapat merasa memandu kereta buatan Malaysia seperti proton saga walaupun bukan lah teruja sangat pun memandu kereta kebanggaan Malaysia tu...

Dan kucing pun tak pernah berharap untuk menjadi manusia... walaupun hidup mereka lebih kurang je rasanya dengan perasaan memandu kereta proton.

Tak kisahlah sekiranya kehidupan terasa seperti .......... kerana ‘kalaulah’ tidak akan membawa anda kemana-mana. Jika tidak, pasti sudah ramai manusia yang telah bertukar menjadi kucing/burung/Ferrari ataupun KLCC.

if school students can vote;

2011-11-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

it won't guarantee you anything...

Government is giving away an allocation of RM100 to school students under 2012 Budget. Heard about this when I was accidently watched the 8 PM scripted news.

The G is giving away RM100 in cash to all Malaysia students regardless of their family background. The cash was meant to be utilised for next term school expenses such as such as.

Where is the sense of it?

The footage was taken at a school in Taman Tun Dr. Ismail, 60000 KL. And some of the student was obviously from a well off family where RM100 is so immaterial.

First, to some it may ease some burden but for some others, it won’t even cover their lunch?

Second, cash transaction for hundreds of million funds? Are they serious? Sure they have one very damn good control procedures.

Third, will it achieve the PM’s pure intention?

For me, it was a ridiculous decision. Whether it was political or non-political motivated, it was total absurd.

tentang perempuan;

2011-11-10T12:28:00.001+08:00

We shop for a different reason. Man shop because they need to but woman shop because its hobby, it’s a monthly ritual or we just have nothing better to do. We bought a new dress just to match it to our newly bought shoes/scarf/handbag or even that new bracelet. We bought the shoes because it was so affordable after that 70% mark down. We bought the skirt because it just so cute. LOL! So, we always found something like a dress we never wear stuck somewhere inside the wardrobe. We try it on and put it back where we found it. Why? It is because we simply couldn’t remember why we bought it on the first place.

For me, shopping help me to evolve.

Words of the day...

2011-11-04T15:01:00.000+08:00

image from Google

My boss always has words for the day to be shared with me. Just like today. His words was ‘live every moments of your life... every moments of it... don’t wait until you become the person in front of you.... he referring to himself. I just nodded and smile...

Earlier...

I don’t know how but he noticed my new boot. LOL! He said to his PA ‘cantik tapi saya tak boleh la pakai...’ and I’m just laughed. Then, he summoned me to his room and said ‘come, sit... I just want to admire your shoes... ‘ LOL! And he did, then shared me his words of the day.

That’s my boss.

And my boot, it’s love at the first sight!

guilty pleasure!!!!!!!

2011-11-01T08:53:00.001+08:00

It’s a sin for some, but for some it’s heaven.

Glad I dragged myself and the migraine to cold storage yesterday afternoon. Bought all the ingredients before went home. Almost buying a boot from Bonia but thanks to the migraine… LOL!

Feel free to indulge with me…. Via the photos, of course of my 5 minutes to the bestest guilty pleasure…

now u see me...

... now u don't!

The how? Just dump few tablespoon of baking flour, sugar, unsweetened cocoa, milk, olive oil, chocolate chips and walnut into a mug, mix it evenly and microwave it for 3 minutes. For recipe, click here.

And the taste? I’m not going to over-praise myself but it was gooddddddddddddd!! It compact but the texture is soft. The chocolate chips melted in your mouth and I’m glad I omitted the egg and add walnut in it… should add more of it next time.

shoes

2011-10-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

shoes; for some, it's investment!

The so called PMS.

2011-10-30T10:51:00.000+08:00

It’s real… as Roe said it. It’s not something that we purposely create to excuse our not so proud attitudes. It‘s in our blood and there’s nothing we could do about it. We could try our bestest to control it but there’s nothing we could do if it was not good enough.

Sometimes it’s purely emotion… so you have to suck it up when deal with one.

I’m currently having it. Hope could justify the above.

I’ve read something on my FB. ~~By the way, I have one contingency FB accounts!~~ And suddenly I felt like I’ve lost my bestie to someone and I hate it. And so many others thought that purely driven by PMS. Thus, it’s better kept them within my thought and the PMS.

Bottom line is the thought is baseless and if it’s not, it’s really beyond me. There are others that will stick around and life is so long, you’ll found few others. PMS driven peep talk.

Sunday+office+PMS = my sundae melted before I could enjoy it!

google earth

2011-10-28T15:43:00.000+08:00

maybe i've missed the boat but Google Earth is cool!

Psst!

2011-10-28T08:49:00.000+08:00

I still want that little house with a BIG kitchen...

So, I can have my own kitchen musical there...

Did you know that a good and tasty foods come from a happy heart?

to be continued...

leaving the politic to the politician...

2011-10-26T14:30:00.002+08:00

Seriously?

The issue surrounding the suspension of Prof Dr Abdul Aziz Bari can be call one of the sensitive issue. Everyone wants to have a say and me included. Here because I’ve no FB.

“… Aziz to focus on his career as a constitutional law lecturer by publishing more research papers in international law journals. He need not voice his opinions at Pas assemblies or other opposition meetings but should concentrate on being an academician and leave politics to the politicians’ – then said by Datuk Syed Hussien Al-Habshee. And my two cents for who-ever-he-is is “WTF?” and have some sense.

Why can’t someone who is indeed of a sound mind and judgement make a comment or giving his two cents towards whatever issue there at? If he is wrong, tell him so. Or you want to write a script for everyone? Can you?

thought for the foods 2.0

2011-10-26T12:00:00.001+08:00

my invention inspired by some guy who made cheese whatever... forgot about him already... :) as always, easy to prepare and simple. with chicken, tempura flour, some milk, few spoon of oat and deep fried for about 3-5 minutes or until the chicken turn gold.

let call it crispy chicken with an oat. can?

I think I’ve fall in love … again!

2011-10-24T13:20:00.000+08:00

… again!

image from: http://www.tecca.com

And they said love is not necessarily to have or to own them. You can love from far and still be happy that you found them.

maybe it could fall from the skies... who knows because the sky is so big and anything could fall from it... LOL!

MMUFS

2011-10-24T08:51:00.000+08:00

6 – 1 …

is more than I hope for.

I just couldn’t help but my Monday is a better Monday if MU lost a game the night before. And 1 to 6 is definitely makes me grinned last night. Luckily I have no Man City jersey, or else I’ve wear it today.

Because those MMUFS need to know that it suck when your heart break. ~~Maybe they will get over it in no time…~~ others may get over it in no time but not MMUFS… LOL!!!!

Have a great Monday peeps!! Especially to those who took EL or MC because ……………

home

2011-10-23T05:51:00.000+08:00

The things I miss the most now is weekends… going back to my parents’ place… took my mum to the market, tv, foods and more foods, sleep, driving my parents to their associates’ place and breakfast with my dad… especially the tv and the food….

Now all my siblings are there… and I have to go to class on weekends. make me felt worst!

I've to attend weekend classes until Dec and it makes the week felt so long… they said there is a price for everything… I’m blessed with all opportunities given but the price is pricier that I’ve expected.

I miss home…

foods for the thought

2011-10-22T10:57:00.001+08:00

my catch on the recent Big Bad Wolf Book Sales... couldn't found what I've planned to buy...

his three inch heels

2011-10-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

If there is something that I could wear and give me the same exact feeling a heel can give, I swear I won’t wear a heel again!!!!!!!!!!

But, there isn’t… isn’t?

Here is the story… last afternoon, I saw a boy if his name is Samad, he want to be called Sally. He always with his Angeline’s sunglass even when it was 7 in the morning… carrying a fashion-statement handbag… and always in his ‘cardigan-for-girl’ cardigan. All that did bother me but I’m not interest. He is grown up and can think for himself. But, the other day I saw him walked with a 3 inch heels. I was like ‘why??????? Why you have to do this to me????? And to make thing worst, we shared a lift. There were only three of us. He went out before us, so as he walked out from the lift, my eyes followed his… heels. It was black and it has a lace material on it… I definitely won’t wear such heels. lOL!

And now I felt like I have to wear a much more better heels than him… I hate that feeling!

thought for the foods

2011-10-21T12:01:00.002+08:00

post from picasa 3. Cool!!!!

recipe for the stuffed cuttlefish can be found here.. http://www.myresipi.com/top/detail/16641

:)

go-&-e

2011-10-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

Literally, when there are so many things inside something such as a basket; you won’t know what are actually inside. And it will take sometimes for you to realize that something is gone.

GONE.

Kept it there for so long… with so many other things and gone… doesn’t seems like it was gone but felt like gone.

Gone…

one of my big fat dreams…

2011-10-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

…. to be famous

then, to be interviewed in life TV on Sunday morning.

so, he jaw will drop upon seeing famous ME…

LOL!

kawan-kawan saya cakap ‘nasib baik la berangan tu free…’

landslide

2011-10-18T10:04:00.000+08:00

It took rain to cause a landslide… a lot of rain on and a slope; high chances to happen on a less stable slope… causes by earthquakes or groundwater or erosion and aggravated by human activities.

If you are a slope, don’t let men near you.

It’s like a landslide when suddenly things gone… if my life is a play; you are the play-er.

sid sienna... No more

2011-10-17T15:57:00.002+08:00

Deactivate my fb account… temporarily! Maybe until I’ve sit for my exam this coming December. :)

Why? Friends asked… ‘I rase ade orang stalk I la…’ like the-person-who-I-thought-stalk-me care!’

The truth is….

You know when you almost bloated because eating too much at a time? Or when it suddenly hit you; ‘what will happen to my fb once I’m gone?’

And life is more than ___________ fb for instance.

But, I’ll miss Mall World and Fashion designer and my neighbors there… LOL!

a burning desire

2011-10-13T06:17:00.001+08:00

Someone said to me ‘you need a burning desire to really have it…’ was his words of encouragement to ensure I excel in my study. Noted!

a burning desire..

a burning desire... and

a burning desire

And I realize that I could use that ‘burning desire to really have it’ someplace else… LOL!

Word of comfort

2011-10-12T18:16:00.000+08:00

I owed Solitaire RM439.00. They said the machine will fail you someday… today is one of the day for me… and to all Malaysians who use Streamyx.

And if you think men are unreliable, machines are worst. What are the purposes of having all those sort of tech if you can’t really rely on it right?

You know, when someone said to you something which you think they don’t really mean it. There are chances that you are right.

Have you ever said something and you don’t really mean it?

For whatever it was…

Someone told me an old saying… that if you eat something from somebody’s plate, you will remember that somebody for the rest of your life. Then, literally said to me ‘I’m so sorry… I’ll have you in my mind forever.’ just because he ate some onion from my plate.. I’ve messed up so many times and will stick around for some more… sure you will remember me…'

And I hope he know that the pleasure is always mine… I meant for him to know, someday!

hurt

2011-10-12T13:11:00.000+08:00

What is right to your heart is not always true.

It hurt when it does.

I hate it when I need to need a chocolate….

2011-10-04T18:13:00.001+08:00

My eyes keep blinking for few seconds on and on since yesterday. Not because someone is missing me or any other saying that associates with it but because I’m tense. Simply because the lousy management of the building simply renovate the wash room without even notifying us and it won’t completed soon. Their progress is no progress at all. They started the work last Saturday and been idle since yesterday. WTFish!!!!!!!!

Our landlord and the owner of the building are not in a good term. There is some sort of history between them and I suspected that the whole thing is just a conspiracy… LOL! But to me, it is fishy.

The thought of having to use others’ washroom alone is really bothered me. I’m not a big fan of public toilet. Can’t recall going to one to do the ‘business’. I’m using the public toilet just to wash my hand or to use the mirror… to check myself of course. With exception to last September when I used the airport washroom to refresh myself because we stranded there for more than six hours. Other than that, I prefer to hold myself until I’ve reach home.

With the no progress renovation work with the wash room, we have to 'tumpang' the other level washroom. The wash room is clean and well kept but the fact that I’m going to have to share it with a bunch of strangers I never meet or know for a period seems indefinite is enough to make me nut.

I’m thinking of asking for a permission to work from home… but just forget about it.

I need chocolate… lots of it!

make me a doa

2011-09-30T23:54:00.005+08:00

How many times you make a doa in a day?

I heart talking to Him because other than tomatoes and George, I can talk about anything with Him…

Then, He is the only one you can ask not one or two but everything… and because He is the only one you should ask from.

Have you ever talked to the moon? Talking to Him will give you much greater feeling…

But, there is one particular subject that seems I could never have right words to say to Him… maybe because I need it so badly but for a wrong reason… or maybe because I thought I want it but I don’t really need it…

And, I’m still wording my doa for I know He will always listens.

then, again...

2011-09-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

I’m full of emotion… FULL STOP
It’s not something good but I just can’t help it…
Now, I want to be a person with the bigger heart. Bigger than Houstan..
Then, my life was so complicated… damn complicated…
Other things aside, it will be just heels and chocolate. END
~~Heels because …..~~ and I really need to stop justifying myself to the world. PERIOD.

breakfast for one

2011-09-21T13:37:00.001+08:00

Almost been there, halfway done that…

If ever I’m going to have a breakfast for one that morning or any other morning after… Tiffany’s won’t be less of anything that it should… I guess!!

And again, "I'm NO polar bear and u are NO penguin” sure one day we’ll be having a breakfast for two…

matahari.my

2011-09-20T13:35:00.002+08:00

You are my matahari…
Not the sun that rising every dawn when the bird is still sleeping…
Also not the sun that setting at the far end of the world to give way to the moon or the dark night…
You are the sun that shines brightly on July
On the bluest Manhattan sky…
It was you, me and the Manhattan sky.
You rarely there whenever I fall like those fallen Mulberry leaves…
You are not there on cold November rain…
You might not be there when the bee flying from roses to roses like serenading a love song.
It’s been years since that shooting star…
It’s been years since I wrote your name here…
I need to love you strong enough to let you off…
And I guess I don’t love you enough to hate you finally.
I hope I won’t be looking at the sky…
When the sun shine so brightly on the Manhattan sky…
Again.

2011-09-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

nota untuk bakal suami,

awak.. saya masih lagi mencari kasut yang sesuai... sila jangan kahwin dulu ye...

p/s; love u... lots!

confession of heel addicts

2011-09-07T18:07:00.001+08:00

Hye, I wish I’m from New York and I’m heel addicts!

I have more than five heels which I would never wear… couldn’t justify why I bought them in the first place.

I have more heels than anything else in my life…

Heels are the best medicine…

It’s a good feeling every time I saw a girl in a sexy, flirtatious and irresistible heel.

My biggest dream is to have a red pencil thin heel with a red sole. The original red sole!

I bought heels when I’m sad, when I’m happy, when I’m broke and wish I could every day.

Boys, don’t mess with me… or I’ll bought a heel with your name on it. I have few!

Love,

Anonymous!

-Buy me a heel; I’ll walk with you till we found the rainbow-

the final journey...

2011-09-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

He is a son… a brother, a teacher, a husband, a son in law and to us, he is an uncle. Pak Jid as what we call him. Quiet, always with his smile, soft spoken man. After so many years, he is finally a father to a sweet boy. He is a good man and always is.

They said thing happened for reasons. He suffered for more than a year of an illness science fails to explain. Those feelings on that Saturday morning were nothing to compare to. Those are the times when loves really matters and lucky for my aunt, she is blessed with a great brothers and sisters. Those are moments when I’m thankful for having them in my life.

To our dearest Mak Uji and Udin, there are no words of comfort than can wipe all those tears. We cry with you till the last tears. For tomorrow, we are and will always with you. And he will too.

In memories of our dearest Pak Jid;

Mohd Yazid Bin Saimon (03.04.1964 – 03.09.2011)

Kepada Awak; terima kasih…

2011-09-05T18:30:00.000+08:00

Kerana membuatkan saya terasa seperti bantal… hanya berguna semasa awak mengantuk. Mungkin juga seperti baju semalam yang awak campakkan entah ke mana… mungkin saya masih disana semasa tiada lagi baju yang boleh dipakai… renyuk.

Saya berharap dunia ini sangat luas untuk kita… untuk awak dan saya. Kerana, it sure sucks if we ever meet again.

Larilah, lari walau sampai ke Houstan…

miss my pillow

2011-08-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

Lately I only managed to get two to three hours of sleep at night…

Bukan la sibuk beribadat pn… ~soon maybe.

And not because of Marc Anthony…

Also not because nak save the cheerleader…

Or not because of si burung pemarah…

Just because I’m a very last minutes person… maybe the very last minutes person.
:)

i was never in the list...

2011-08-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

I love to remind myself that life is a choice… and you are responsible for what you choose.

I read somewhere that someone prefers to stay single because she is not ready to be hurt…

I didn’t know when but I’ve chosen something that cost more than what I thought it would. Thus, I'm living the consequences…

Yesterday was one of the days I would want to remember… sitting next to my cupboard while waiting for buka puasa… searching for something … I may found what went missing but it was so hard that I …..

But, I’ve made mine…

2011-07-29T11:02:00.001+08:00

This Ramadhan would bring tears to my heart… I foresee.

For the choices I’ve chosen.

For whatever reason I’ve reasoned.

For all defect I won’t sorry about…

for it hurts more that it should.

can't take my eyes off you

2011-07-29T10:18:00.000+08:00

Maybe it’s his sunglasses… or maybe his voice… or maybe his body language… or maybe his fingers…or maybe because of his gold shirt… or it is just him…

But I can’t have enough of him…

My body don’t lie… let it rain over me!!

x-y-z

2011-06-26T10:48:00.000+08:00

I was stopped by a guy yesterday… ‘kak, nak tanye.. blok 4 kt mane ye?’ With such confidence I said ‘oh, dekat belakang car park tu…’ it was my unit’s bulding. ‘terima kasih ye..’ ‘sama-sama’ and I walked away… All of sudden, I turned to him and ‘erm, sorry ye… saye x pasti la.. saye rase blok 4 is that one…’ in the end, I asked him to go to the building I guest is the one he was looking for and asked any guard man who suppose to guard that area.

I’ve been living there for three years and I didn’t know which one is which. Sometimes when people asked ‘eh, duk blok mane?’ I would have to think before answering…

That guy must have thought that I’m new or a visitor just like him… because he saw me going toward my block… or else he would think I’m nut or blur or whatever.

Note for future ME; it’s Sunday and I’m in the office… hope your Sunday is better than mine!

a man, a woman and a discussion about eskimos

2011-06-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

'do you want to hear an interesting fact?' said jo. 'eskimos apparently have over fifty different word for snow. snow's really important to those guys - i suppose it's because sometimes the difference between one type and another can mean the difference between life and death. 'she paused and laughed self-consciously. 'you know they've got words for dry snow and wet snow, fluffy snow and compact snow. they've got words for snow that comes down fast and snow that comes down slow - they've thought of everything.'

'that's a lot of snow,' commented rob as his eyes flicked to a scruffy-looking mongrel crossing the road in front of them, oblivious to the night bus hurtling towards it. it only narrowly missed being hit, but continued coolly on its journey to the bin outside the off-licence, which it sniffed studiously, then cocked a leg against it.

'so, what's your point?' asked rob.

'well, it's like this,' replied jo. 'if eskimos can come up with fifty words for snow because it's a matter of life or death, why is it that we've only got one word for 'love'?'

"Mike Gayle - Brand New Friend"

kosong

2011-06-20T09:01:00.001+08:00

This morning, I saw a middle age woman with a boy… he is roughly two or three years old…Her son maybe… he clung to her maybe because he was sleepy or maybe it was just too cold… and that few second really makes me felt so empty…

My sister said…

2011-06-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

The place where I’m currently staying is like a collector’s place.

For example, an antique collector; his or her house must full of antique.

And she said she can’t live in a place like that… where there are so many ‘common thing’ that cloud the space… LOL!!!

And she was right. If my place is a collector’s place, then it’s not just any ordinary collector… it would be a damn good collector.

LOL….

it's my birthday....

2011-06-01T23:59:00.007+08:00

..... almost a year ago. LOL... I've been meaning to publish this entry so many times but 'time...' This entry is for future reference if I'm still blogging 20 years down the road...

Here is from my inbox

Dayang – hapy besdy to u ;-) tomorrow

He who should not be mentioned – Tahniah. Slmt hari lahir

Norie – Happy birthday…dh tue dh bile lg nk mkn nasi minyak ko…kah3x

Hajar – Happy bdy dear..dont wory just 1 no ahead of me…hahahaha…smga pnjg umur agar dpt kbrktan drNYA dr pelbagai cbang yg membhgiakn hdupmu…slmt ulg thn…

Roni – Cik, slamat ulang tahun…sm0ga dberkati um0r,dmurahkn rezki & dpercepatkn j0d0h…ttys

Abg Man – Happr birthday

Digi – To our valued customer, DiGi wishes you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Dyana dearie – hepy burfday 2 u..smoga pjg umur & murah rezki..syg kamu sgt2…

Shelloit – happy bufday babeee!!! Hope all ur wishes come true ngee

Kak aida – happy 28th bday kakak.. semoga panjang umur murah rezeki amin (eee dah tua dah dia)

Gearbox box @ Ayu – Salam..hepi bezday sis! Smoga u sentiase hepi n tabah dlm mjalani khidupan ni & I doakn u pjg umur n murah rezki, yg pnting jodoh dicpatkn tau hehe love u muahhh:-*

Nad – hepi besday my dear twin! May Allah bles u with joy n hepines.

Cookies box @ along – accidently deleted.. sorry along..

there are some print screen from my FB account but lost it already... machine will always fail you right?

u have 1 new message!

2011-06-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

Someone sms-ed me asking ‘awak nak kahwin bila?’

~~I’ll get married when I’ll get married~~

Oh, saya dh kahwin last month… just a family event. Sebab husband saya kene station somewhere out of Malaysia for 3 years. Baru last week die pergi… it was so hard but there’s nothing can be done…I can’t resign just like that… That’s why xde kenduri and everything. So, end of this year saya pn akan ikut die… saya harap awak akan bertemu jodoh yang baik…

Hopefully he is not the guy I met at the deli and the rest is history…because I don’t even reply him. There are no perfect words.

2011-05-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

When life seem so impossible

When happiness fades away

When what given never enough

When it look like there is no one else

When you felt out

When world suffocated you…

It’s Him you can turn to.

why?

2011-05-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

Why some women were created with so much emotion?

Why some women have to care so much about everything?

It’s tiring…

No Fair Game…

2011-05-25T18:07:00.000+08:00

‘cantik lah bibir awak…’

That I would never ever say to anyone… maybe to that someone after he said ‘I do... I do... I do… do… do… do…’ in front of the Tok Kadi…

If ever a man said that to me… that would be the end. If ever a man said that to me during my 8 to 9 course of life, I might sue for sexual harassment. LOL!

But what if it was said by some married woman to another married man? For some it may be just a compliment, or freedom of expression or freedom of whatever but it's for me a moral issue.

My friend shared what her friend said to her. He said that girl nowadays have to play it aggressively. According to him, some woman would do just anything to get a man. Just anything. And she without hesitation told him that if that is the case, she passes!

If the game is indeed unfair, why bother playing?

A CEO to be hired…

2011-05-24T17:43:00.002+08:00

Not for ABC Enterprise…

Also not for some DEF Sdn. Bhd.

It’s for something like G Berhad. LOL!!! G is never for Genting tho..

I’m now eligible to sit on the same chair as my Summer Love…

(he is actually a CEO for a privately owned company... but still a CEO...)

Here are the criteria to be met before a person can be appointed as a Board member of a Public Listed Company...

COMPOSITION OF BOARD OF LISTED COMPANY DIRECTORS;

At least a director must:

(a) be a member of the MIA ; or – One click away…

(b) have at least three years’ working experience (CHECKED) and must:

~~(i) have passed the examinations specified in Part I of the 1st Schedule of the Accountants Act 1967; or - passed!~~

(ii) be a member of one of the associations of accountants specified in Part II of the 1st Schedule of the Accountants Act 1967; or - One click away

● A degree/master/doctorate in accounting or finance and at least three years post qualification. Experience in accounting or finance; or – CHECKED!

~~● At least seven (7) years‟ experience being a chief financial officer of a corporation or~~

~~having the function of being primarily responsible for the management of the financial affairs of a corporation. - passed!~~

Marry Poppin 5.0

2011-05-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

miss Marry Poppin decide to strike back... watch out kids!!

15 years from now

2011-05-24T14:25:00.000+08:00

Datuk Hafsah Hashim - CEO of SMECorp Malaysia

Christine Lagarde - Minister of Finance, France

Tan Sri Dr Zeti Akhtar Aziz - head of BNM

Yasmin Mahmood - MD for Microsoft Malaysia

images are from; google.com

I’m literally working for 2 of them… it’s inspiring to work or know women that are the force behind a great organization…

So, in 15 or 20 years time, if I’m not busy in the kitchen, I might be in some Board room spanking my accountants… LOL

Loser…

2011-05-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

One of my friend will ym or fb chat me on Friday at 1800, for most of the time. He would tell me to go back… chill out… basically to have a life. LIFE! Just like today… and I’m almost answer him ‘xpe, aku kn loser…’

If I did, I would felt worst than a loser itself. I did not think or want to be one but it’s likely than I’m living a life of a loser. Working late on most of the day especially FRIDAY and my weekend would be either going back to my parents place or office. Does that spell L-O-S-E-R?

Loser; No need to pretend to be one… because it’s LOSER!

Life is much more than pretending to be a LOSER, or wanting to be a LOSER, or thinking whether or not you are a LOSER or a Loser times two.

Hypothetically, I’m fine with my life. I’m happy. Can loser feel happiness? If can, I can be a happy loser… LOL!

our song

2011-05-18T18:38:00.000+08:00

I sense that you are amused,

but you just bought those brand new shoes.

It would such a shame not to give us the chance.

And oh my love there is only so many dances we can take across the night.

So while is just me and you

I thought I might say to you

You put the beautiful in life.

I know at times that you feel alone

when I'm here and I'm never home.

You said before is the price that you pay.

On matters of clarity

is not secret you are carrying me.

But you disguise thoughts of fall

I will keep you safe.

This is not our favorite song

but I wish it go on and on

it's moments like these

singers do all they can to stop time.

cliche

2011-05-14T13:01:00.000+08:00

trying to write something not cliche... :)

wedding preparation 1.1

2011-05-12T19:27:00.000+08:00

Wedding preparation 1.0

The truth is, I knew he was looking at my direction… he might be eyeing my pink Tupperware or my baju kurung… my baju kurung might remind him of someone… and I did catches his eyes… of course I did because they said your body can sense if some eyes are looking at you... but I did nothing… not even a courtesy smile… So, that was it. We never bump into each other again after that afternoon. I don’t even know if he is still in the building next to my office building. I don’t even know which level is his office. I don’t even know if he drives to work. Or if he park his motorcycle in front of my office building. Or maybe he took the subway to works. I might know his breakfast time… it 0845.

But, I heart to believe that possibilities are endless.

Maybe this afternoon…

my ponta

2011-05-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

Let me re-introduce myself…

Hye, I’m 23, a divorcee with a 5 year old boy. My ex-husband woke up one day and realizes that he can’t do it anymore.

Hye, I’m 28, a divorcee with a 2 year old boy… he is so like his daddy… my late husband died in a car accident.

Hye, I’m 27 years old, married with 2 kids. What’s more to tell? I’m living a dream!!! LOL!

Hye, I’m 34, yet to be married…

Hye, I’m 40 and live with my 2 cats. It’s so good coming home late at night and having nobody to answer to…

Hye, I’m 29 years old… single and available. Marriage? If a man is a way to get a child, I prefer to adopt.

Hye, I’m at whatever age I’m now… single and I want to be married yesterday. Not tomorrow, not next week or next month. But maybe 2 years down the road… only when a man can be less of whatever they are now…

Possibilities are endless….

Yang sempurna

2011-05-11T09:46:00.001+08:00

What is perfection? 11/10? I can’t think of any thing I’ve done or achieved so far that is perfect. it’s not easy. But, we demand for perfection. Can we have perfection?

To have the so called perfect life, we need a perfect someone to be the perfect husband/wife… that is the most perfect plan. We live our life with the thought of wanting that perfect someone to be the perfect whatever. It just so hard to consider just any someone could be that perfect whatever. Indeed!

What we don’t realize is that perfect someone could be forever to be found until we can keep the perfection aside. Don’t worry; sooner or later such perfection would fly through out of the window… yes, it when all the whatever-list become just a nice smile/any nice man.

And you sure don’t want to finally have to justify your spouse-less self with ‘there is not even someone in this tiny little world who is perfect to fit in my so called perfect plan.’ But if you have, best of luck then…

My perfect list? Erm, I’m going to have to amend it... LOL!!!

credit to these blog; mencari ke'perfect'an & Mencari Kesempurnaan

trying to beat that 1000

2011-04-23T16:09:00.001+08:00

Amitha Bachan writes at least 1000 words a day in his blog…. He sure has lots to write or he just simply can write anything… he might write about dhal, curry, nan, prata…. Or about his handsome son and Aish… actually he writes about everything… and being at his age, he surely has lots to share with the world… maybe I should check him out, for some inspiration or so…

I’ve cut one of my finger accidentally… during works. It’s really a minor cut… I often got a cut from paper… lots of it but this one was from the cabinet… this cut actually slowed down everything… I have to hold the door using my elbow, I spent longer time in the bathroom, I typed this entry with extra care cos I ‘m avoiding using my ring finger and so on. This cut makes me remind what that wise man said “I cursed the fact that I have no shoes, till I saw a man with no feet”.

Recently, I met a guy in some unfortunate event that happened to my friend. He was with his friend who indeed involved in that unfortunate event. While his friend and my friend solving the unfortunate event with the authorities, we had a little chit-chat… then he asked ‘dah kahwin?’. I often classified that as a motive kind of question. And it’s not… I guest! So I told him the truth… and he said “kesian”. I was like what???? I’m not 40 and even if I’m 40, it was the least appropriate word to say to someone who you barely knew. I wish he knew! Cos he don’t even know me or know my name….

I’ve seen in a magazine awhile ago about Michael Douglas. He walked his daughter to school. But it more like a grand-dad walking his grand-daughter… he is 60 something and his daughter is barely 7 or 8… but he is Michael Douglas! Then, there is also a picture of Jude Law with his son, Rudy who is 9 years old. Jude is approaching 40s. And I said to myself ‘Poor Jude!’. LOL!!!! Was it worth it? And will it works to start a family when you are not that young? When others are two steps in front of you? I don’t know when it started but I’ve said it often that it actually sound like a perfect plan; married after or by 30 and have as much as kid before 35. Thanks to Jude law, that perfect plan I’ve kept from forever looks ‘kesian’. At this juncture, life is beyond unpredictable…. Suddenly I was thinking about ‘married for companionship’ concept! LOL! Blame it on TV!

This entry is becoming so rojak…

I bought a shoe. I’m a sucker for shoes! A real sucker!!! LOL! I love observing… about everything… especially people, especially beautiful people, especially women whit that sexy and flirtatious heels! I can’t resist! Back to my shoes, for me it sexy, flirtatious and I could need a new pair of working shoes. Have you heard that before? I could use a new heel, I haven’t bought any shoes in a month or I should buy this one because …….. That was merely justification for a relationship between woman-shoes that men could never ever understand… back to my shoes, I bought it after my third visit to the store. See, I’m trying to just-try-and-look but it couldn’t be helped. I just have to buy it! Even it doesn’t really that comfort to walk in it. But like I said, I just have to buy it. So, it’s mine. I wore it first time to the office. If the shoe is a guy, I’ve dumped it right away. It changes they way I walk, it was painful to walk with it and I just didn’t know why. The proportion seems normal, the heel is perfectly sexy and I just don’t know what was wrong with it. I hate the feeling every time I wear it but I guest I’ll wear it until it really breaks me… or until I got another pair of shoes. Looks like I could use another pair of working shoes… and walking shoes… another pair of driving shoes but I definitely need a jogging shoes. Desperately!

I’ve been checking my word count to check if I’ve reach 1000 words yet. LOL! and I guest I could never achieve it just with randomly write about rojak stuff like this. Ha-ha… the truth is I’ve so many things to write… but each of my entry either stuck in first paragraph or first sentence. It’s bad. Maybe I should go and read that old guy’s blog, for some inspiration and motivation.

Word count; 787.

How to live within your means?

2011-03-30T18:00:00.003+08:00

I found an article that gave 10 ways to live below/within your means…

1. Redefine your definition of ‘rich’ – rich shouldn’t be define as driving the most expensive car but having enough money to meet the basic needs, a few of your wants and be able to give some to others

2. Borrow & Share – borrow a DVD from friends and vice versa… instead of buying & renting…

3. Avoid the mall – need I say more? Ask any shopaholics you know…

4. Buy cash – (READ; your own cash…) you can’t spend money you don’t have… Debit cards? You can go over your account balance.

5. Find a better deal – compare

6. Stick to a long-term investment strategy – spread your investment over several mutual funds and a few individual stocks.

7. Stay healthy! – Medical problems drain your bank accounts

8. Prepare for a rainy days – life isn’t always about roses and cupcakes! LOL!!

9. Avoid impulse buying – buy things you really need.

10. Time is money – manage your time properly. Focus on tasks that give you the absolute most return.

enjoy!!!!

wedding preparation 3.0

2011-03-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

picture from; google.com

this is what me & my other 6 friends been doing in Facebook right now... it keeps us LOL!!!! and receiving almost or more 1000 notification from Facebook in just a week!!!

and we might make others felt like throwing up... :D

~ mujur lah berangan tu free....

wedding preparation 2.0

2011-03-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

My Oscar

2011-03-03T13:59:00.001+08:00

If I ever nominated and won the Oscar for 'the most annoying whatever' my Oscar's speech would sound pretty much like this:

Fist of all, zillion thanks to the management of xx apartment for denying me… I did pay my maintenance fee tho! But, as you said; ‘I’m just doing my job!!!’ Whatever! And also thanks to those who… (erm, you don’t want to know who) for… (Oh, you sure didn’t want to know what they said too..) but thanks anyway! Yes, it’s all my fault! Me and myself alone. Noted and see you guys at the next Oscar!!!

Sometimes I wish I could just fold my car and put in inside my Birkin!!!

14 Feb 2011

2011-03-03T08:33:00.000+08:00

We would associate the 14 Feb to Valentine first…. right?

A gift is to be kept… but what about if someone gave you something and they purposely signed it off and dated it 14 Feb 2011? If I ever kept it, there are chances that maybe in 20 years time, someone might ask me; ‘Oh, who is this? Was he your Valentine then?’

Someone gave me a book… as a gift. He likes it so much and recommended me to read it. Before I went off yesterday, I thought of reading it… maybe the first page… because it’s period kind of novel… To my surprise, he signed it off and dated it… what-the-whatever!!!! Is this some sort of Valentine’s gift?

Luckily nobody knows about anything… about how he sort of giving me the novel… the novel he carried around since… How could he do this to me???

The novel is likely to be under my desk forever… or anyone up for a free novel? :p

Please Don’t Let Me Go…

2011-03-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

Oh… I fall for Olly Murs!! Particularly Olly Murs in that white shirt singing ‘Baby, please don’t let me go…’ Oh, I won’t babe!

I’m tired of people asking me that one question. I always half seriously said ‘kalau boleh, semalam nak kahwin… tapi….’ It sometimes shut them up! LOL!!

Please Don’t Let Me Go…

I’m here…

There he is…

There is a wall between here and there….

It’s a wall with a door and the doorknob is with me...

I have a hand on the doorknob while the other hand is ticking those crappy checklists…

I’m in the middle of a conversation with myself… to pull or not to pull the doorknob…

And one thing I want he to hear me saying is

‘Please!!! Wait there for a little while...'

I’m not trying to fight the moonlight but….

But, do you have a scar that you can tell me about?

Alicia Bitch Longlegs' Legs

2011-03-01T12:29:00.002+08:00

I’ve read something about man on a magazine… it said ‘When meeting new person of the opposite sex, man will first look at her eyes (seriously serious???) and then her definitely yours…. Then her legs!’ Only God knows why the legs…

And it occurred to me that, that is one of the reason there are so many singletini around… Legs and the other immaterial variables…

If she was all right but then the legs… her legs happened to not match that Alicia Bitch Longlegs’ leg… and he fancy Alicia’s longlegs so much… So, he dumped her because of that legs… what happened IF she and her-not-Alicia’s-legs is actually his? The one written for him long long time ago…

Love is not to be yield by legs… or definitely yours!!! It supposes to come from something more apparent… actually, I'm unsure with the later but LOVE; definitely it is not because of some legs or eyes or whatever they said to you…

Dude! (READ; Single dad…)

2011-02-26T09:51:00.013+08:00

picture from: http://mestisainsuburbia.blogspot.com,

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Tall, dark and handsome…. Unchecked!

Not so tall, not so dark and not so handsome… unchecked too!

I always have a thing for single daddies… especially single daddy with kid; son, age around 3 to 7-8 years old… sound too specific I guest! But, a single dad with kid (READ; plural) is somehow spell as s-e-x-y…. LOL!!!!

It’s so hard (READ; damn real hard) to find one NICE available and single man… but, would it be easy to find a NICE single dad? We’ll see…

And it must be damn real hard to find tall, dark and handsome single dad that somehow sweet and nice!

Haha…..

The Mechanic & Me… 2.0

2011-02-25T07:58:00.003+08:00

…And some other strangers…

The movie started with a style and ended with a bang! LOL… there are few ouch!! moments, very classic songs, The Company (as usual), lots of man in black suit and a judgement that went all wrong…

An assassin should be a loner… or else the other human will eventually deviate them… but Jason Statham is definitely my 'sincerely yours' … in my Sid'o'Land of course!!!

After all, I’m really my boyfriend’s girlfriend… LOL! By the way, Michael West is my other associate boyfriend. I was so thrilled by all those firing, explosion and weapons.

It’s a great movie… maybe I should go and watch the earlier version…

"A good Mechanic is hard to find…”

The Mechanic & Me

2011-02-24T21:46:00.001+08:00

The Mechanic… I knew I have to watch this movie… it’s my kind of movie… just like ~~The Peacemaker, Batman & Robin, Intolerable Cruelty… Opss! That is the other kind of my have-to-watch-movie… LOL…~~ Con Air, The Peacemaker, License To Kill, The Godfather, The Assassin and such… when there are the bad guy, the good guy, action pack and some cool gadgets such as weapon and more weapon… LOL!!! Not those kind where the battle is human V alien, alien V robot, human V robot and vice versa…

And I knew I have to watch it by myself… because cool people such as snipers, assassins or secret agents wasn’t suppose to have a human… I mean as a friend, family or someone special… They are a loner… So, it would just be The Mechanic and Me today!

I do think I’m best to be ‘a loner’; currently. Just to reflect my life as it is now… Sound pathetic? I hope The Mechanic won’t disappoint me as some other things in life right now… I can’t officially talk to him because I’m on leave right now… these are the time during the month where I miss him terribly… I always felt the need to talk to him in such a proper way… We miss something when it’s gone… Always!

Miss Auditor

2011-02-21T18:00:00.000+08:00

I was browsing my phone book the other day… and I came across this name ‘miss auditor’. I have no idea who is this miss auditor… it would be great if it’s mr.auditor instead… I could just call and ask…. :)

The miss auditor is actually an acquaintance I meet during the recent seminar I’ve attended. She did tell me her name but I didn’t get it. I was hesitated to ask her to repeat it again… then, I just key-ed in miss auditor when we exchanged our contact number... with hope that I will recall her name later… until now, she will always be the miss auditor…

I’m really bad at remembering others name… unless if you tell me ‘I’m Bond, James Bond!!’ Sure will I remember yours... LOL!

I remembered watching one of the Martha Stewart’s show. She invited an expert in remembering strangers’ name. It’s important to remember one’s name the first time… because it you are not, it was either you are not paying attention or you are not interested. You did not want to give that impression right? I don’t. The guy gave few useful tips. I don’t really remember most of it but he said about association. Try to associates him or her with anything that will help you remember. Example; you meet a girl, she wears those Betty’s glasses… and let say her name is Alia… you can either acknowledge her as Alia, Betty’s BFF or Malaysia’s Betty is Alia. (P/s; this sort of association and acknowledgement is for yourself only… LOL!) Another tip is repeating their name during the initial conversation. It will help your brain to register and keep the name better. This can be applied only if you catch their name when they first mentioned it… LOL!!! And if you don’t, just said ‘I’m sorry but I have a hearing problem…’

Like a Cinderella

2011-02-17T12:59:00.002+08:00

You know Cinderella? Her beauty was hidden behind the smears, dirt and dirty clothes. Her life was gruesome most of the time. She has a family but never felt love… She was a servant rather that a daughter or a sister. Nobody cares except when things need to be done… poor girl! She was indeed a kind hearted girl because she wasn’t complaining… she seeks happiness by singing for herself… and the rest is history!

I felt like Cinderella… scratch all the beauty, lovely and the prince charming part… I’m a blind spot! You are there but who care? ‘I’m sorry but I didn’t saw you…’ there are times where I love this ‘You’re nobody’ thought… No one seems to care so I could just slip away… with times, I getting good at isolating myself from everything… it hurt but I live!