Wednesday, April 25, 2012

wordless wednesday

One day, 
I wish we could sit on that same bench, 
eating some chocolate 
and reminisce that late afternoon when we made that promise.

It became clearer now that you’ll be my coffee partner and I’ll be whatever you want me to be.  

Monday, April 23, 2012

i got rainbow!

He sort of gives me rainbow... which I don’t think I deserve it... but if I ever mentioned it to him, he would think I’m so impossible to reason with (which I’m) and he may took away the rainbow He so given me.

I’m expecting thunder and lots of rain... I acted my usual self; a girl who freaking afraid of growing up and marriage. And I don’t know about others but I got rainbow!!!

And what is next after the rainbow? The sun may shine brightly or....

And I said “so, I can’t buy any more heels now right?” “You can buy when we are in Istanbul later...” “How many?” I asked. “To the limit...”.

I don’t know what he is up to or what is in his mind and I will never know I guest. But I’m damn sure he really cares about my heels. 

Sunday, April 22, 2012

a drive by...

This day; today; these very moments...

I’ve pictured of the outcomes in so many ways... of how I want things to turn out to be... of how should I react to every consequences... I’ve been prepared for anything.... but if things turn out worst, it could not be that bad caused I had the worst day ever. Just like what I’ve always told someone every time she’s scouting for a chalet or hotel. You already had the worst chalet ever back when we were somewhere, someplace... so, chill!

Just a little reminder for yours truly; if He so want you to have it... you’ll have it. Period.

And Mr.Darcy; As always, I’m deeply sorry.

I’ve submitted myself to Him... with open heart and tears for He knows what He knew. For I still have Him no matter how the day going to treat me. This journey today may be the longest and the hardest but it’s something I’ve to take, for there may be a rainbow at the end of the road. 

Friday, April 20, 2012

he and he-el-s

I’ve been comfortable wearing a flat shoes these couple of weeks... not because I’m planning to run but because for some reason I don’t feel comfortable walking in my working shoes. Some of the heels need to be repaired and some others; I don’t want to wear them cause I’ve never wear them before.

So he asked ‘why didn’t you wear your heels?’

And I just smile... he care about my heels!

"merci beaucoup"

Thursday, April 19, 2012


I’m the kind of person who keeps everything inside, especially the lowlight of my life. I just didn’t know how to share it with others and I’m quite sure if I did, I’ll cry. I couldn’t give you a reason for not sharing my lowlight with you.

And Mr.Darcy,
If you read this somewhere, says 10 years from now… just remember this;
I can feel how seriously and sincerely your feeling towards me. My mind may be deceived by those chocolate and heels, but not my feeling. And for that, I thank Him. For everything I have or feel right now, I wish I could talk to you about everything. I know you’ll be here but I don’t expect you to stay when I’m broke. Definitely wish you to but it may be too much to ask.

So Mr.Darcy,
It’s all I can share with you now… only time can tell about tomorrow. But as of today, I love you Mr.Darcy. 


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

so he asks

And he asked; do you want anything?

So I said... I don’t want anything... I just want you... for you to love me endlessly.

Thursday, April 05, 2012

no title

On that very day when I’m literally fifteen again, I’ll be at Tiffany… where I’ll feel like home… where everything is shining, sniffing through the air and dancing to my own melody…

With or without Mr.Darcy….

‘Cause establishing something which concerns me and me only is doable. It won’t rain for sure… because it’s Tiffany!

I do have plan for that very day, Mr.Darcy, Tiffany and yours truly but with uncertainty and variables, I prefer such establishment.

Don’t we all prefer a pre-planned surprise? Or it just me??

p/s; If He so want you to have it, you’ll have it… period!